verbalizing

maybe this is because i am pregnant, or may be not...you know the feeling that you "do " it because you just have to "do" it. and that because he needs "it". maybe that's the reason why i don't enjoy making love nowadays as i did before. its only now that i was able to verbalize it, but i have observed it for quite some time now. i told him that i didn't like it when he stands up after he released and then wash himself up... it makes me feel like i'm just being used, have been used and that I am dirty. He says its not that, that its just the sun is already up and that we need to open the shop. On other occasions, he's thinking about profit, business, his friends and that's what he blurts out after the act.He say's he does love "making love" with me and that he loves me... that I am just being SENSITIVE...me, I don't know.

new year, new hope

I may not know where God is leading me and what will become of me now, but one thing i'm sure of...He has a reason for doing the things He does. I may not be able to understand it or get the bigger picture, but i know that His grace will be enough to sustain me and keep me going.

to go or not to go...

after six years of trying to fit in, 6 years of thinking i'll go somewhere and have my niche in this field...its only now that i've realized that this isn't my field, this isn't my turf.economics superseded one's passion as that was the cdall of time, and so i stay. the situation hasn't improve that much but will i have the courage now to let go? can i just let go and start all over again...from literally,scratch?
i had glaring booboos at work this year and its GLARING...what can i say, i have already reached the point of burn out here.do i still care? i don't know...i am not sure but one thing i know...i will survived nad will do better on my next life hahaha^^.

renovation

i'm thinking of redesigning my blog here...its been awhile since i have visited, moreso wrote here.i've done my formatting on paper and i hope to find somebody to help me develop my own site soon. it is important that you know people who knows, especially if a particular thing/field is not your expertise.^^ i am excited of the said prospect,i even had articles piled up already and i hope to start soo and accomplish this task before my birthday...what do you think?will i meet my deadline or what? well, lets wait and see.

long distance

be it in life, in running or in your relationship, long distance requires patience, tenacity and endurance. the motivation starts from within coz if you loose that will to finish the distance then you loose sight of the end and all the joys that could possibly come from it. as my sister said, life has a lot of "huhus" but God will keep pouring on "hahas" so keep your sight on focus and pray, always pray...because when all else fails, He will be the one who will carry you through it all and He will be the only one who will remain.

My First Official Marathon Run in 2010

Neutrogena's Chase the Sun last May16 was my first official marathon run in 2010.

We runners indeed chase the sun as we gather at 5:25 a.m. for the group warm up stretching exercise...gunstarts at 5:55,just as the sun was rising in the east. It was a beautiful Sunday for us runners to be gathered again.

I thought i wouldn't last long because it's been a while since i did distance running...with very minimal instances of slow stride,as i was advised not to fully stop even when you're tired but to slow down & keep your stride, and some quick stop at the water station. I have finished my 5K run in 37 minutes++...whew!not bad for a start...Didn't had lots of pictures though but i guess what's more important is what you learn about your stride, your pace, your endurance and more of yourself as a runner along the way.

I am looking forward for the trail run next month.

on running and exercise

this is me after my jog today.

i have stopped jogging in the last two weeks and have found myself gaining weight so fast(4kls).i am back on my running pace though it's not a good one yet, i am sure that if i keep on it i'll gain my pacing back in two weeks time.if i just keep on it and make smart food choices and be conscious on my intake, i am sure i'll get to my ideal weight.

it is essential to have a conscious effort when your slimming down and to have a buddy to work out with to cheer you one or check up on you when your lagging on your workout.it is also important that you do inhal and exhale correctly and posture/form is of essential in execution whether you are stretching, running, or swimming.it's also important that you wear the proper and comfortable gear so as not to make the activity stressful but rather a good and enjoyable one. My Adidas running shoes has been a trustworthy partner over the years and a comfy top and non-sweat sticking shorts gets me in the mood to run.